Saturday, March 23, 2013

My First Sling

Looks like I am transitioning from an emotional period of pain to a physical period of pain. Oh well. Haha. Used to see

Friday, March 22, 2013

A Farewell to a Friendship

So one of the most hurtful events to happen was the abandonment of someone I thought I could call a true friend.

She started at my Lowe's store back in 2011. She was friendly as can be, and seemed to really listen to what I said. I remember one of the first things we did was play Lion King on the Sega Genesis. The day was so much fun. To meet someone at random and end up playing Sega. Haha what a time.

We would hang out occasionally. Went out to lunch a lot, particularly Old School Bagel Cafe. Saw some movies. Went to the fair the last two years. Talked alot. I tried to be the best friend I could be. She was so generous about rides to work, offering as much as she could to help me out. I tried to return the favor best I could, even limited as I could be.

Though that was weird even sometimes. I did things out of the goodness in my heart. Yet there always seemed to be this vibe of...well Corrie's nice to me so she must be in love with me" Uh no. I would do the exact same things her long time friends would do but I'd get outcast for this reason. It was like I was too nice. Things I would do for anyone, and have done, that I know she had seen, somehow she was this special case. I could not offer even gas or lunch without her feeling weird or bad about it.

Now it is like I do not exist and I do not know why. She will not talk to me, and I do not dare push it. I learned that lesson years ago. I can speculate a few reasons, but none of them were intentional and most of it is gossip and hearsay from Lowe's. I am so sorry if there is anything I did to cause this.

So while it hurts what was lost, I will always cherish what was had. I forgive her. I can only hope that someday she will see the truth and just how strong and fair along I have made it, realizing just how wrong this was to cut me off.

Sunday, March 10, 2013

Surgery Kickstarter!

So I've been playing around with this idea for awhile, but for fun I thought I would post. All options stack, so if you paid my surgery, you would get everything, and probably my heart to. Anything over $25,000 goes to me going back to school, obtaining a house, and down the line paying it forward and helping others in similar situations. 

A portion of my post surgery income (5-20%, possibly more) will be dedicated to returning all donated funds directly to you or to the charity/person of your choosing. I will post my bills and income as they are available, less health expenses, and from the remainder divide up the funds. There is more to this list, which will be updated as I sort out.


Special thank you card.


Email correspondence granted.


Special invite to my social media pages, likes and activity not guaranteed. Exclusive picture section access.


I'll be your best friend on social media! Likes, game requests, I will respond as much and as often as I can. 


I will be your game buddy! Xbox, Wii, iOS, Android, and PC only, Includes but not limited to Call of Duty, World of Warcraft, EVE Online, Halo, Diablo 3, and many others. I am open to other systems, I just do not own them. I am also an achievement whore.


A filmed video of your choosing. Respectable and clean only please! For example you could buy me a dress and I will model it for you.


A date! I am open for anything, from a movie to go karting to paintball to flying to the beach whatever. Oh and I love to eat out and travel!

$10,000 - $25,000+

Two guaranteed dates! Both Pre-Op and Post-Op. If I like you, you are clean, and there is chemistry, you have a chance at being my last and first! 


Your own companion, think Doctor Who

During the wait for surgery and after surgery/recovery, I will be your indentured servant for five years. More accurately consider me your personal maid. I will run your errands, clean your house, wash your car, watch the kids/pets, whatever you needed me to do that is reasonable, respectable, and not "adult." My only requirement is that I am allowed to attend classes to finish my education, and the ability to either work part time to pay for gas or make up any gaps that may occur. Leftover self earnings will go back to you during that time.

Because with $100,000, I would finish school and have the life I could only imagine. A life I have tried so hard to make and suffered intolerable setbacks.